...Mustika Lara...

Comot+Milo+Lilo+Koko+Cico+Yuki+Akie+Chip

Emo emo feeling dah hampir pupus since there are 5 days to go back to Msia and meet new comers =Cico,Yuki, Akie and Chip. I went to Rundle Mall today to find something to bring back home. Ended up, im so addicted to buy cat accessories and toys.I didnt even get anything for myself. Ive got Milo, Lilo and Koko's pet tag engraved at Chinatown and thats the cheapest place i can get, plus the owner gave me more discount..happy :)

There are one more thing i need to buy, the cat harness, its easy to bring them out so they wont runaway. Bought one for Comot (the most ganas) last time, its proved effective. We need to bring the kittens out for a walk, so they wont turn out so jakun and gangster like comot..haha.

Wow, its been awhile since my last posting. Things kinda get more hectic, my life is a mess. Thanks to facebook, ive seen so many happy faces, who have the career, the family and the certainty of happiness. While me, still sitting here with empty handed, alone and miserable. I would say that i am grateful for what ive got, but its just.. there are huge space in me need to be fill. It is getting empty day by day. He's gonna leave me soon. He made it clear, he's leaving. I have till next summer to figure out what my life should be without him. We both know that this is gonna happen, why are we so foolish to have thought that we might manage to leave one another after so much love has been growing in this relationship. Are we still gonna act as if it will never happen. We are happy together but, we cant be together. Why am i not so lucky?? Everybody else got their love at the right time..when is my turn? Half of me, wanna stay here but the other, ask me go back. But i believe when the time is right, i will the answer. I am back to where i was two years ago. Life with no purpose, no excitement. This might sound weird to people who know me, but this is what i actually feel. But i know, someday, somewhere, someone will will take me..accept as you do..Amin.

Wah wah wah...lama sungguh tak blogging...ive been soo so busy since i started working..ala bukan keje bagus pun...but at least ive earn some money for rainy days. Actually sekarang ni pun tgh rainy day pun....duit takde. Sebab tu kena kereje.

There are lots of things happen since my absence, and i dont know how to start. Takperla...ill just mention what i remembered....hmm...nanti la..after the exam.

Harini saya ader exam at 6pm...still gatal nak tulis something. Malas yer nak baca...mentang2 la open book test. God....please help me...

Mai mai....dah tau nak exam...semalam gi tgk movie, YEAR ONE...ya Allah...mmg tak sangka betul la....movie tu sangat la CRAP...membazier waktu and duit jer. Two weeks in a row tgk cerita crap..last week, LAND OF LOST...mmg im lost pun bila tengok cerita ni, merepek giler...lagi teruk dari StarTrek..hahahah

Dah jadi Cinebuzz member ni, sibuk nak collect points..asyik tgk movies jerk...siap hangkut encik arpan sekali pulak tu. But Angel and Demon, mmg best...

Next week nak tgk cerita aper ek?? Transformer or Wolverine??? Encik Arpan tak minat criter action pulak...pelik la mamat ni...semua lelaki minat criter action..dia tak minat..sebab banyak bunuh2 and lawan2. Tapi yg pelik yer...pernah pegi interview for indian army officer..then, of course la tak dapat kan...hahahaha..Yang bertambah pelik lagi...abang dia Indian army tuuuuu..and bapak dia..taiko kat bank..dia lak...hmmmm...hahaha

Selalu perli dia tapi kena balas balik. Dah tu lak...siap ader aussie gay ni nak gorat dia...lagi la...Isk isk...dah mula merepek dah aku ni..stop now..ill continue later bebezzz...

Received this dvd yesterday with excitement, but hampa coz there is no subtitles available. It was supposed to be with english subtitles, it mentioned in the item descriptions. I emailed the seller, which apparently a huge whole saler about the issue, they told me that it shud be working but duhhh, it doesnt. Melopong la semalam tengok criter ni without knowing what actually happen.I would say its a 50% satisfaction, i am happy to be able to see one of my fav telenovelas after soooooooooooo long again. But, tu la, tak faham, just guessing what are they talking about. Sebenarnya, terpegun tengok kejelitaan Gabriela Spanic aka Paola/Paulina. Flawless giler macam BARBIE.Seriously cam anak patung. Tengah2 sakit belakang and sakit tangan (gara2 teruk bekerja), sanggup tahan sambil tengok telenovela. Habis satu drama series in one day...fuhhhh!! Dulu, criter ni amik masa berbulan2 nak habis, mana tak yer kejap2 iklan...pastu banyak kali miss..and kali ni pulak, takde subtitles...cehhh bedebah!

Tomotniee hilang lagi.....

Berderau jantung aku semalam when my mum called me last nite around 12.30midnight(Adelaide Time), told me that tomot hilang lagi...she said that he might be sneeking out when my dad open the door and went to the mosque. Nakallllllll betul budak bulu ni!!Tengok tu, dalam gamabr ni pun, duk kat depan pintu, macam security guard. Cari peluang nak jadi gangster la tu. Muka jer comel...tapi ganas and garang giler makhluk Allah yg satu ni, takleh nampak kucing lain.Mesti nak gadoh...dia ingat dia sorang jer kucing dalam dunia ni. I was so worried and i cant even sleep so, i sms my bro and told him to find him. Around 2.45am (Malaysian Time), my bro sms me back and said that he found tomot near the little mosque (surau laaaa) when he heard some noise like a catfight. So, he rushed there, and saw Tomot is acting gangster with other straycat. Obviously, he's the big muscle-ly one (nicer word for Fat-to0) to compare with "Lindsay Lohan anorexic" type of straycat, he thinks he's the BOSS....hahaha..

Anyway, im still worried coz of the cars, naughty kids, other cats...he might get hurt. Oh..i forgot to ask my bro, "Is he hurt??". Feels like i have a baby bro.....yg nakallll.

p/s: Always shed to tears when i watched BONDI VET or RSPCA Animal Rescue

Another parcel arrived this morning contained the unexpected DVD from HongKong. I thot i will be the parcel from US for "La Usurpadora or Rosalinda" coz i've order it on the 27th of March. Anyway, i am happy and i finished watching the movie. It was sooooooooo sad and sweet...awwwww...makes me cry. Lets see what goes inside my letterbox tomorrow ("^").

p/s: Online shopping is exciting..yeapy ♥♥

I was planning to send my mum cupcakes from my dear-schoolmates,Sue this friday, but unfortunately i couldnt FIND the way to send the payment via bank (too expensive), via Western Union (lagi la mahal) and nak hantar by post pun tak boleh. Aku dah poyo2 jerk kasi details and jenis cupcakes to Sue, tapi malu jer have to cancel it. Sorry yer Sue..nanti mai balik Msia, confirm mai order PurpleWorld tu, geram tul tengok cupcakes tu...yumyum.

Anyway, ive got another job catalogue delivering...hehehe.Bila duduk sendiri barula rasa camner susah yer nak dapat duit..kuikuikui. Bayangkan la, katMsia, jangan harap la aku nak keje cleaner or catalogue delivery ker...Tapi kat sini, gaji hebat..sebab tu keje cikaicikai pun boleh tanggung satu keluarga. Aku ni, sajer jer nak tambahkan duit shopping..hehehe, oppss lupa pulak, bill2 tu saper nak bayar, Cik Mai!!!

Banyak jugak bende happen today, Arpan dah cam putus asa dah, gan IELTS, asyik dapat reading 5.5 jerk..kesian kat dia..and kesian kat aku jugak...sebab kalau dia balik India, aku jugak yg melopong and meraung...sob sob. Dia kata 16haribulan ni last dia amik IELTS..kalau still tak lepas, dia akan balik India FOR GOOD. Malang yer nasib aku....in term of relationship...hmm..back to square one la nampak yer. ZERO.....

Kalau Saif tau, mesti dia gelakkan aku..gelak sinis... :(
Tapi aku tak desperado sgt, malas dah nak cari..
Bukan boleh harap semua..
Lagi2 makan hati,berulam jantung

*Warning: Dont be too tense or it may be cause brain damage.

ya...kamu, Maizura

Bersabar..bersabar...dugaan Tuhan semua ini (tepuk dada kuat2). Few minutes ago, i received a text message from REEDIE ST DEMONs saying that the house is not properly clean...what do u mean its not properly clean? Ive clean it for one whole bloody week. Sebenar yer, umah ko tu yg cam nak roboh, nak salahkan aku. Dah tu, nak deduct my bond plak, if i wish to ignore it. Mengelegaklahhh hati ini....Arrrggghhhhh!!!


Baru bulan May, dah banyak kali dah jadi THEHULK, apa nak jadi nehh!!! Belum lagi penghujung tahun, dah banyak bende yg stress-kan aku. Dah naik beruban & berguguran dah rambut aku neh, memikirkan cara2 untuk mengelakkan masalah dengan makhluk Allah SWT yg bernama manusia.

Tapikan, i am glad that i have encik arpancomel who always care, walaupun selalu perli aku...durjana betul mamat ni. Hahaha..nasib baik dengan kecomelan encik arpan dapat meng-cooldown-kan aku. Kalau tak, memang kena la lagi sekali "TAMPARAN WANITA" ...opss i did it again..lalalala

Giler ganas...mmg patut pun, wanita zaman sekarang ni tidak wajar diperlekehkan.Hambikk ko...ayat skema dah keluar dah. Sungguh senang rasanya, dapat menggunakan bahasa melayu yang indah ini...hahahahah.Geli pulak aku.

p/s: Bahasa Jiwa Bangsa....Negaraku, Tanah Tumpah yer darahku..

Online Shopaholic Rise...AGAIN!!!
Addiction Level: ☻☻☻☻☻☻
(per☻= per purchase)

• Spice Girls Live in Istanbul DVD
• The Moffatts, Chapter 1: A New Beginning CD
• La Usurpadora Telenovelas DVD Boxset
• Rosalinda Telenovelas DVD Boxset
• HeartBreak Library Korean Movie DVD
• Bestway Inflatable Double Bed

Still bidding:

• Solid Harmonie MUSIC CD(CURRENT BID: GBP$0.99)
• Thalia MUSIC CD(CURRENT BID: US$0.30)

OMG..six online purchases in a week!! OK, STOP!!!Jangan beli lagi ...MAI!!
Bahayala ko ni...hishh!! Walau bagaimanapun..shopping makes me happy walaupun patah kaki..without swift bacha (encik arpan cilok tuk gi keje, wiper kereta dia rosak pulak...). Semangat shopping datang balik...after soooooo longg ikat pocket. Bukan perut, pocket.Perut tak perlu diikat, kerana ia sentiasa diisi oleh sponsor2 tertentu..hihih. Yg penting, all the items i paid for, is the cheapest from retail market cost. Dont need to mention how much la, nanti kena chop cheapoo lagi.

"Bogan Terrorism!!"

Been talking to Syar over the phone about my 'lovely' neighbours "THE BOGANS".Not one or two, but the whole block of units are full of BOGANs. How unlucky i am, huh??.. Again...

Haven't seen the inside of the Hackneys unit but the area seems nice and peaceful. Sighh.....really tired and not in a mood to packed AGAIN my stuffs. Plus, sooooo sad..i luv my so-called 5days apartment.Hate thosee BOGANNNNNNN!!!!

Not so happy afterr all.......

Already move to Oaklands Park, CROZIER TERRACE, is just a nightmare. Behind my apartment is where the BOGAN lived. I have no idea this could have happen, since i had this apartment from SA Student Housing who provides home for Unisa students. Its not like i blame Noreen, the SASHA officer, but they didnt do any further research of that place.She told me and Arpan that these apartment (there are three under SASHA) they just got it from the government and was told that these units are suitable for students. Yes, the inside apartment is great, i love it too. But, today is the fourth day ive been living here, its like living in hell. I know not all the time, but the BOGAN are always there. Just imagine at night, they screamed, shouted, throwing bottles, making lots of noises and cursing with rough language at 1-4am every single day. Sighhhhhh.....i am concerned about my safety, and my property's safety. I've been told from other neighbours that the BOGAN are druggist, alcoholic and they can knock at your door when they are desperate. I am shaking...Arpan's been telling me about the truth, but somehow, the first and second day, i seem to refuse to listen to him. We always argue about it. And turn out, he's right and im wrong. I am glad i have someone who care about me. He always with me. We went to the Sturt Police Station today, to make a complaint and request for police patrol at nite. We also went to Noreen and Tony, requesting for shifting to another place. Both of them has been really helpful and understanding. Noreen told me, that there is one more units will be available by next week in Hackney. Arpan jumped, and insist me to take that property as it is near the city and lots of students living there. Noreen told me that no need to worry, if things got worse, she can even offer me her spare room. She is soo sweet. When this issues settles, i plan to cook something for her and Tony. Sighhh....

*Warning: Have to survey the area of your living. BOGAN ALERTT!!

Pindahhhh Rumah...again *sigh* + *happy*

Aduii..banyak yer barang kena pack. Tapikan..best jugak sebab excited dpt umah baru. Lately, i've been busy finding some essential furnitures (i mean really cheap & affordable) and thank GOD so far ok, coz i've got a best deals which i think is a good investment.

-Reminder-

• Pick up Budget van at Marion Rd at 10am (already paid for $42.49)
• Couch at Andrews Farm for $25 (pick up on Sunday at 11am)
• Two Sofas at Brooklyn Park for $30 (pick up on Sunday at 1pm)

-In Possession-(yeayyyy!!)

• Brand new Fridge for $230
• Secondhand 51cm TV for $40
• IKEA Dining Table Set with 4 chairs for $99. (yg ni..Arpan belikan..awww sweet)

-Hoping for....-

• Queensize Bed Ensemble with Mattress for $75 (already sms the seller, but still waiting for his reply)

Kalau la dpt the bed, complete-lah rumahku syurgaku yg baru.Biar simple, takyah nak beli banyak2 barang.Sebab, yg sedia ader ni, sila2 la gunakan sebaiknya yer..cik Mai!!!!

p/s: lupa nak amik gambar...dah habis daaa..yumyum

INGREDIENTS..

• 275g skinned chicken breast fillets
• 3 tbsp tomato puree (paste) *dice tomato in can also accept..
• 1 tsp grated fresh root ginger
• 1 1/2 tsp ground coriander
• 1 tsp crushed garlic
• 1 tsp chili powder
• 1/4 tsp ground turmeric
• 2 tbsp lemon juice
• 1 tsp salt *according to your taste
• 300 ml water
• 1 tbsp oil
• 2 medium onion, diced
• 2-4 curry leaves
• 2 or more green chilies, seeded and chopped * i preferred cili api..HOT!
• 1 tbsp fresh coriander *Takde pun takper..

Additional ingredient..

• 1 1/2 tbsp cumin seeds * sukati aku jer letak..lagi sedap

p/s: Actually, there are few more ingredients for this recipe but, i find it unnecessary and its makes it taste weird to me. So i decided not to include it in my third attempt. But if u wanna try, the extra ingredients are:

• Large pinch of ground fenugreek
• 1/4 tsp ground fennel seeds

HOW TO COOK..

1. Cut the chicken breast into dice medium size. Marinate it with the turmeric powder and small pinched of salt.
2. Put the oil on the balti/pot. Put the cumin seeds for one minute.Add the diced onion, crushed gralic, green chillies and grated ginger ,and wait till its totally cook.
3. Put in the chili powder, ground coriander, tomato puree and water.
4. It should appear as a thick paste, so u have to add-on a bit of water form time to time while stir it accordingly, to ensure the paste does not stick to the pot.
5. Put the marinated chicken and keep on stirring it till it cook.
6. Put the lemon juice and curry leaves. Leave it for a while.KEEP AN EYE OF IT.
7. Put the salt according to your taste.
8. Waaaalaahhh....put the coriander leaves for presentation and serve.

p/s: The HOW TO COOK part..i follow my own way..not according to the book.Arpan gives me some tips as well..the INDIAN WAY...haha. Sedapp yerr...You can eat it with capatis, naan and basmati rice.

VERY GOOD..MAI !!

Rajin2 la ke dapur yerrr...

*Warning: The taste maybe vary to others.

If only i could turn back time.......

I couldnt get myself sleep and i cant get away with the thought in my head repeating the same things. Am i gonna end up alone...if not forever, but at least alone for a longer period of time. No partner and no friends...

I just cant keep both of them. If i have, just a few dears and im glad to have them (bersyukur sangat..). But why cant i just be neutral to a friendship? Without any drama or competition? I must confess that im starting to dislike FACEBOOK more than before. Shud i just delete it?

Obviously, It is the place for people to shows how nice they are, how thoughtful they are..but behind those mask, they are just being mean.

Lagi la makes me,
miss my schoolmates...rat+ayie+shima+aeza+nor+mira+rozie
miss Lydia... miss Meen... miss Syar...miss Kak Amy...miss Adil n Haz, i even miss Aida...I miss the good old days..

If only i could turn back time....i wanna feel again the days ,minutes and seconds of it
If only i could turn back time.... i never wanna know anybody named Saif Nizami
If only i could turn back time.... i never wanna meet anyone who hurts me now
(iF Only i could turn back time....lalalala...BY AQUA)

P/S: Ala, AQUA...tak kenal ka? Ala..yg nyanyi lagu IM A BARBIE GIRL!! IN A BABI WORLD...OPSS I MEAN BARBIE WORLD...
Tak kenal gak? Gi la GOOGLE !!

Alamak,I accidently saw those pictures..BAD!

SIGN OUTTTTTTT!!! Arghhhhhh.....

*Warning: Don't check Facebook and Orkut more than you should. Maybe harmful and increase your negativity.

Bulan ni mmg bulan yg mencabar kesabaran aku, lepas satu per satu lara yg timbul. Cam org sengaja jer nak buat aku panas hati, aku ni dah nak hampir2 jadi The Hulk. Bak kata org, api yg marak disimbah dengan minyak petrol bergalon2 (minyak petrol dah murah daaaaaa....), tentulah akan jadi KEBABOOOOM !!! macam bom atom. Aku ni tak habis2 asyik nak meletup jer...tapikan..tapikan...at least aku meletup dengan penuh kesabaran. Meletup dengan meluahkan perasaan menggunakan senjata yg paling hebat dan percuma iaitu KATA-KATA KESAT (tapi tak kesat sgt pun kan..kan..takper Mai, still PG lagi). I dont harm anybody, right? I dont broke anybody's leg, right?...kikikikiki. Tapi jangan cuba provoke api yg menyala.....

What's the motive?
It is not weird but it is a total clear. Why copies me? Arghhh.....next time, ill just keep my mouth shut.No plan,No stories and no copying. It is said and done...DEAL!!

*Warning: Watch ur back, Mai!!

Yup, im still obsessing about the landlord thingy, i have the courtesy to meet them personally yesterday without using any electronic devices to inform them the real situation and my decision to get the hell of my ass from their dear so-called, "AUD$180 DESERVE GRANNYFLAT". I know, grannyflat sounds funny but in this particular reason, its not. Its just that i dont understand why people like to piss me off whereas, i tried to not creates any troubles. Its just like what they called ,"BADI". Macam terkena badi pulak,that i cant get a peaceful life without having to move around from one place to another like a nomad. Teruk sangat ke aku ni?? Sighh....am i?

Tapikan...i've stayed in hostel before, like 100,000 years ago.I dont have any problems with any of my mates..for God's sake, 12 people in one room. Dont know la...the conlusion is to stay on ur own..i know it can be a bit lonely, but its the best place to be if ya need space and peace. I WANT PEACE........!!!! Ehh...kalau kawin, kena duduk berdua gak, what if u can't get along with ur hubby and if he turn out to be a jerk ass. SHIT....its like u stuck with him forever....well, i know there is another way, ....but GOD forbids. Boleh ker aku kawin? ??

Confession of a Shopaholic
Rating: ♥♥
Semalam, gi tgk umah baru and i have chosen the upstair apartment which has balcony and im soo in luv with it,,cant wait. Then, me and arpan went to Marion shopping centre to watch movie "Confession of a Shopaholic".I know ive said ill wait for Windsor, but since we have nothing to do so we ahead of plan. I am totally dissappointed with the movie coz as usual, they change more than what it shud be. The result is CRAP!! I dont enjoy at all coz they missed a lot of the best part which makes the story interesting. Im totally not impressed.Such a waste of time and money...and embarassment when u watch it with ur partner and they make fun of u about ur choice and more worse when u force him to watch that CRAP movie. Basically, it ruined ur reputation as the smart one with better interest.

*Warning: Never have high hopes for the movie version of any books coz it usual turn out crap. So watch out!!

These two gives u the advices, ideas and signs about our partner, the relationship and how to deal with it. Sure do help me...

If only i have this book "HE JUST NOT INTO YOU" two years before, i might have seen the signs and might have back-off first. The moment i read this book..its just like BAM..BAM..BAM...one to another in my heart exploding like BOMB...just how idiot i am trying to work out the relationship.

*Warning: The story-line of the movie is made up by the moviemaker using the advices and signs from the book. The book is actually a self-help book, not a novel.

People who knows my previous relationship might understand what i mean, the sign that he is not too eager to meet me, once in blue moon call, always say he's busy, never try to meet my friends, always avoiding , bla..bla blaa
Just too many ....

And the second book "Its called Breakup because its broken:The Smart Girls Breakup Buddy" is a total HELP...to get me out of my past. Still reading it and trying to digest the advice, ITS HARD..but i will try. I bought this book first for myself and i thought that there would be one person, who i think might need it and I would love to share the ingredients of this book with her. So i went back down to the same bookstore, get another 'SMARTGIRL BREAKUP BUDDy" and went straight to the post office. SEND......

p/s: Somebody will be receiving delivery very soonnnnn.... :). Arpan actually has been soo generous to paid for the book for her as i covered the postage cost. Sharing is caring , he said. Awww....so sweet!!!

*Warning: Sharing is caring doesn't really applied to every situation, terms and conditions apply.

Helloo Oaklands Park...Goodbye dear Henley Beach
Since ive got the sms from the evils, i immediately cari umah through websites, newspapers and ads. Bukan senang nak cari umah AUD$150 ke bawah. i tried to look at real estate agents rental properties, tapi semuanya mahal plus bukan senang nak dapat umah from rental agent, kena go through macam2...and belum tentu im selected. BUANG MASA....so real estate agents...cutttt!!

Pastu, cari pulak kat adelaideexchange website..ader satu dekat henley beach..so i called and make an appointment on the same day. Tapikan, i have a bad feeling on this one coz the girl sounds aussie...susahh ooo..duduk gan omputih ni...banyak songehh. When i arrived at her house, ohh yaaa...jangkaan aku mmg betul...dia pun nampak terkejut bila nampak aku..hahahha...terus dia buat muka taik dia cam malas nak layan la. Tapi takper, aku sabar....gi jer tengok..masuk jer umah dia...ohh yes..mmg la cantik plus dia ader kucing lagi...cutee tapi tak se- cute tomot aku. Dia tunjukla kawasan umah, n bilik yg kononnya aku nak sewa la, she said that, its her sister's room..alamakkk....umah family dia rupanya. OK..that's a big NOO...and dia kata, jgn buat ni, jgn letak sinila..mcam2. pastu, dia kata there is another GUY coming this weekend for the other room...aku pulak, terkejut coz in her ads, two female uni students, camner lak tertukar jantina pulak ni...another NOOO!!!..Nak dijadikan cerita pulak, dia siap bagi two sheets of paper contains house rules...ohh God, masa tu, aku rasa macam kena BOM jer...NOOOOO. Aku nampakla dia ni mmg memilih giler sebab banyak org dah tengok umah ni, its a really long list. Dia gitau arr...dia akan contact aku, kalau bilik tu still available...in my heart says" F**k Off!! and Go to hell!!" Tak ingin aku duduk gan kau. Blah la...pastu, bila aku kuar dari umah tu, baru satu langkah, dia terus tutup pintu, didnt even send me to the car.Lagila, aku menyampah gan aussie girls.

Without any hope or interest for that room, i continue my search for my new casa. i tried to go through unisa accommodation website...lagila mahal....sighhh!!Tapikan..tapikan...aku ternampak SA Student Housing, Noreen Morphetts...cam familiar nama tu...tapi kat mana yaaa?
Oh ya!!1 Arpannn!!!! Arpan duduk kat one of the student housing and his landlady named Noreen Morphetts. Sepantas kilat aku call Arpan and ask his favour to contact Noreen and tanya ader umah kosong tak?
YaAllah, happy yer aku, bila Arpan told me that there are three vacancies for one bedroom units at Oaklands Park available at the price of AUD$100 per week.
100 dollar??? r u serious?? well, the next day, me and Arpan when to SA Student Housing at City East, to meet Noreen and she show me the pics..its unfurnished but there are built-in wardrobe, stoves, etc..but takde fridge, katil..
Takper, boleh cari yg secondhand..plus Noreen recommend one electrical shop jual fridge murah..boleh pergi tengok...yg penting umah ni murah...
Esok, nak gi tengok lokasi umah (walking distance to Marion Shopping Centre and train station depan umah) gan Arpan...n pilih unit mana yg aku nak!! yeayyy!!! Noreen janji akan simpan satu unit untuk aku...sampai aku officially OUT from reedie street (25th April 2009). *sigh*

Gerammmnyaaaa!!!Benci tahap cipan tul la gan landlord yg tak mengenang budi tul...Ade ker patut, nak naik kan sewa umah lagi...baru jer few months ago, diorang naikkan harga from AUD$130 to AUD$150.Ni, dah nak naikkan harga lagi to AUD$180...gila duit tul la diorang ni.Elok sangat la tu, pompuan cina yg tak sedar diri gan pakcik scottish yg accent cam nak terkeluar taik tu..Marahhh yerrr akkuuuuu!!Dahla tak berani nak jumpa aku...bagi sms jerkk!!Alasan, utility expenses dah naik...BULLSHIT!!Bill kau yg naik, nak salahkan aku plak...dahla aku jarang ader kat umah...camner plak salah aku, bill naik...BODOH betulla.Pastu, right after aku kasi duit rent every month, ader jer barang yg korang beli ekkk....last sekali, canoe...wahhh banyak plak duit korang beli bende alahh tu..
Aku ni dah kira baik, tak pernah complaint aper pun pasal umah yg dah cam nak roboh ni...almost two years plak tu..duk diam2 kat umah..tak bagi masalah.
Ni, nak amik kesempatan pulak, nak suruh aku blah la tu....elehh cam umah ko tu cantik sgt jerkk...umah aku lagi cantik.

Nak dijadikan cerita pulak, aku baru jer dpt call for catalogue delivery job for Henley Beach area, tapi camner pulak ni, aku kena pindahhhh!!!!Haii...melepas la lagiiii nampak nya!!!!!

Sob...Sob...Sob...Sob.....

..Special Delivery and Dedication of Love..
**Meen&Moon Engagement Bouquet**

White roses and baby cherries has been send to Meen's residence in Setia Eco Park, Shah Alam at 9.48am, Saturday morning of 7th March 2009 specially ordered by me through the online florist service 'Pods & Petals GiftLabs' as a gift on her special day. Since im in Adelaide, and unable to attend the ceremony, thats the best thing i can do to represent myself.


Anyway, Meen called me around afternoon (Adelaide time) and i was so excited to hear her surprised voice coz she never thot its comes from me....duhhh!!Hahaa...obviously la she might think its from her so-called 'Mr Bert' fiancee. Then, i realized that the delivery shud be made around 2pm (Malaysian time), and its still early..laaa...they send it not according to time pulak. But its ok, coz the deco was great just up to my taste and Meen happy with it. That enuff for me...to be content and satisfied.



Wah...when will my turn comes? Hmmm...
Oh ya..at the times, i also send Lydia 'Roald Dhal:Charlie and the Chocolates Factory' to keep occupied...and stay away from love story book (which most of it are crap...but some good) so better fixed with fairytales and fantasy.

There you go, like i said, this is not Adelaide, anything can happen in Melbourne. On the way, there are numbers of cyclists on the road to the city from our Caravan Park which situated in Braybrook around 9km from Melbourne CBD. So, the driveway took a lonngg slowww movement as everyone trying to give ways to the cyclistsbecause they are not all professional cyclists, see this:


Oh dear, scary to me cycling on a busy road (Takut aku + sempot giler babunn). Then, after dia habis test, we went to Queen Victoria Market which i am soo soo soo determined to go and swear that i might beat him up badly if we missed it again...(long storyy....anywayy).


Finally, we are here..ehh something looks familiar...hihihi...baby swift!!

**HAPPYYY yerrr!!!!**

Arpan, at first is making fun of me coz im so excited to see the market but ended up, he enjoys it too and guess what, he bought a bouquet of pink roses for me (well, i've been indirectly trying to tell him something for sooo long since weeks before Valentine's). Thought would stop there..but he keeps on givingg:

.....A Bouquet of Pink Roses....

...Arpan luv Nur in Chinese Symbols...

...Maizura in Japanese Calligraphy...

...Two rings (Love + Crystal)...

**He is so sweet and thoughtful**

Just got a call from Arpan saying that the migration agent, Glen has called asking his IELTS test result.Bad newsss!!!! He didnt have it yet and the next date for test is in June, how now??? I dont want him to go back India...i cant accept it. i cant...!!Oh God...just saw Saif pics and he's in India now for the wedding and now, got this bad newss..again...shitttt!!!What can i do...what shud i do?? If Arpan go home, he obviously will get married asap and ill never see him again...how can i handle this?? How ???

oh my God, i am blogging to express my thoughts and feelings since i dont know when. It is easier to just type and nagging to your own thoughts and it is as if im talking to myself and one day, i might turn back and see my life at the present time when i wrote all this junks. I can say that i am lonely at the mo, even though i have someone with me, who always try to makes me happy and at the same time, purposely trying to pissed me off....well, it is part of being in a relationship..i guess. But, the bottom line is I MISS MY DEAR FRIENDS...all of them wherever they are. I sort of miss the moment where we are all together laughing and making fun of each other, hanging out...i guess its all my fault from the beginning. I pull myself away from them, well maybe some of them, just to stay away from any troubles and most of the times im with Arpan because i dont know when is the "day" is gonna come. Some people say i giving myself trouble and pain after what happen last year with Saif. I shud have known myself then, but im weak. At that time, i thot that i need to someone who can distract me from thinking about Saif but so far, deep inside, there is some love for him. And now, part of me has loved Arpan as well, how am i suppose to let go when time has come?? Am i gonna suffer as bad as last year??Shitt...Love come and go as they like...you can never predicts what can happen next..today they say they love you, and tomorrow, they said "Im engaged to be married........to someone else, NOT YOU!!"..

Patience does not guaranteed ur man gonna stay with u forever...coz they cant!!!It is such a waste of time and u r actually in pain coz u r trying to be patience on the misdeed he's been doing just to makes him happy and love ya. WRONGGG!!! I have tried for three years but still, he choose someone else over who he just met from few weeks (i think so...if its not a lie) and send me evil email after getting engaged. My God!! I am totally exploding in anger and hatred when he said that "he fell in love with her and we're engaged!". Didnt even call me to apologized....ended up i called and i forgive him coz i love him so much and i hope he's happy(sigh).So muchh love, huh....even when they break ur heart. So, my point is they always want someone else...its like a trend today in marriages and any other relationship...break up and separation. I dont think i believe in love anymore..well, at least not 100 %. We, women has to always be careful and on guard to keep our man on our side (including their eyes...coz they are evils). Even internet is a dangerous thing these days by the existence of those dating websites coz u never knows ur man could join one or two. "Im just flirting....nothing happen" could the excused they might idiotly gave you and if u r stupidly believe him especially its happen when u r out of town. NEVER TRUST MEN.....my advice to myself coz i know i can that stupid person who HAVE to believe on all those crap...(sighh..) just to keep urself out of fighting.

Firstly, this is not my first blog i have made so far. I have no idea what happen to the previous blogs (maybe i have forgotten the passwords or dont know which email i have used or dont give a damn on anything about my previous life( or love life...shittt!!).